Losing

You know why I don't gamble? I don't do anything that's remotely close to gambling. At least, not with real money. I don't buy 4D, Toto, don't play Jackpot or even BlackJack with 10 cent bets. If someone insists that I take out my moolahs in Mahjong, I'd gladly sit out.

The reason is, I really HATE LOSING. I don't care about not winning. I just hate losing. The thought of losing even $1 sickens me to the very core. 

Last year, during CNY dinner, everyone in the office was asked to chip in $5 for the 2-million Toto cash prize. I was the only one who wanted to sit out but eventually gave in just to shut everyone up. To me, that's $5 I'm never gonna see again. My heart ached for it. Who cares about that 2 million? (Well, no surprises that we didn't win.) 

On our first cruise together, Kh bought a $25 ticket for the Bingo event which I strongly disapproved. My stomach dropped with each single ball that was release, even though it wasn't even my 25 bucks. I realised that I actually found more joy playing fake Bingo games then real ones. Why then should money should be wasted like this?

Sometimes I wonder why adults can take money so lightly. Like, losing money is alright, as long as you're safe and healthy. Growing up, I'm learning to come to terms with it. Not just with money, but with every little setbacks in life. 

The 20s have been a whirlwind of trying events. I can't help but become more cynical, occasionally questioning why life is so hard. Despite my non-activity in the gambling scene, I still find myself losing money to unforeseen circumstances. As is the case for my actions and decisions. It's hard having to deal with these constant bouts of self-reproach although I know that sometimes there was nothing I could have done differently. 

The bottom line is, shit happens, and there is nothing we can do about it. I am learning and trying to keep faith, and trust that God will do what is best for me.

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight."

Bodyshop Warehouse Sale

The Sale is on once again! It's time to stock up. ;)

I reckon this year's sale is much better than last year's. Check out my loots!

For myself:

Peach Lotion- Free with UOB card

Shampoo sample- Free with Bodyshop card

Bag- $8

Wooden Hair Brush- $12.90

Seaweed Facial Wash- $12.90

Seaweed Toner- $3.30

Nail Buffer- $2

Tea Tree Blemish Stick- $9.90

Lemongrass Footscrub- $9.90

Strawberry Body Polish- $5

Aqua Lily Shower Gel- $5

Rose Oil- $3.30

Lavender Bodywash- $2.50

Lavender Body Lotion-$16.90

For mum:

Foundation Refill- $12.90

Moisture White Facial Wash- $14.90

Makeup Sponge- $2

Tea Tree Oil- $9.90

For kh:

Luffy- $1

FAIL

There must be a lot of busybodies living in this street.

How is Kook a more common word than Okok?

Hey Ger

Thank God for my new job. Special thanks to Mum and Gerrie for praying for me too. 

The interview process wasn't easy. When I submitted my resume, I was asked to answer a few questions with regards to social media marketing. After which, I got shortlisted for an interview with the boss. After the interview, he decided to put me through to the next round, and I had to work on a rather tough assignment-which I spent 20 hours doing- and following that I was shortlisted again for the 2nd round of interview (but if you think about it, it was really the 4th). I was having butterflies in my stomach for days just thinking about it. 

I remember when I went for the first interview, I thought I would be meeting the HR manager. But he seems to have the aura of a rather important person. Kh googled him and found out that he's actually the founder of the company. Well, if you can actually google a person, you realise that that's how important he really is. It kind of freaked me out a little.    

The funny thing is, he started calling me,"Ger" after I signed the appointment letter. How is it that people can feel comfortable about giving me nicknames so quickly, and it's always "Ger"? My sisters are also Gers but nobody calls them that? You know of course I don't mind, I just feel really puzzled. Hmm. 

Blind Effort

Ever wonder why sometimes people study/work so hard but yield no results out of it? Well, sometimes it is not that they are stupid. It's just that some people have the mentality that as long as they work hard, they will succeed. They stay positive and keep telling themselves that.

The reality is, there's also something called Blind Effort. You keep doing the same thing over and over again, you keep trying, but you don't go to the root of the problem. You don't try to understand why you failed, and you just carry on doing what you usually do, in the hope that one day, success will come to you. Get this. Success doesn't come to you. You want it, you have to go get it.

One simple example is when we're dealing with computers. Computers give us problems every now and then. What many of us usually do, is to keep clicking on the same button and ask,"How come there's no response?" Well, did you expect something to happen after pressing it for the 100th time? Many times, the solution is just out there. It could be very simple stuff. Did you accidentally press "Caps Lock"? Or accidentally switch off your wireless connection? etc. When you don't think about the reason behind the problem, you'll always be stuck in the same spot.

Don't deceive yourself that you are working hard. Blind effort=Zero effort. Remember that.